emotional wreck

so i had actually prepared this long diatribe and partial cry for sympathy. as it would be, one of the items i left out came to bite me in the arse when my laptop all of a sudden turned off and killed my whole entry.

so here is the short version.

-i'm in a new place and it's so awesome i enjoy the weather, i explore the area, i'm working out, and i'm even reading.

-problem is, i don't have a job yet, and it's a bit of a drain on the bank account

-i went to a job fair that was for largely minimum wage positions and though God's graces I was able to unearth a more glamorous position doing something i actually have a history in

-my relationship of 3+ years , i ended it because i felt my almost an angel partner simply was soo good of a person and strived to be so that my 'man' complex simply made me feel as though i was a bad person and that simply must have been how she perceived me

-i go places and see things that she would be enamoured by and i can only think on her. am i still simply too close to the project and it will come to pass or am i a moron who let perception is reality go a step too far

-the people i've met and the roommate i have always have something going on and my lack of finances has shacked me to a shell of my normal self and a recluse not at all representative of my extrovert personality

-and of course of the 2 computers i have, neither works reliably or consistently long enough to put in a day of solid job searching or apparently to complete a blog entry

such is my world currently. i have no idea where my true emotions lie. Lord willing, one of the resumes i've put out will lead to a position in the very near future and i'll be afforded enough time to sort some of thise things out.

may all your lives be made simpler as well.
God Bless.